idk why i think about you more then ever, staying up all night only with the hope to not be sobre the next day, i sit there and think, think about the future, the past, and most importantly the present, or pesent for me. Whats going to happen, thats all i can think about. What will you do, or even better what can i do.
I cant fucking blame you though! i know i cant please you, and i should have seen this wall instead of walking into it. If i can’t please you someone else HAS to, and its only a matter of time, but how long has this nonsense been going on for? Who do you say you love me? such words shouldn’t be spoken without meaning. You had no reason to hide it from me, do you think im that dumb? i know you, you know that. I dont know anything anymore, and i dont think i ever will. I don’t care about anything anymore, good thing your everything right? or so i thought, well theres always room for one care in everyones life, you’ve had that spot on reserve, and for some reason its still there. I just, i want things to be ok, but i don’t think i can do this again. I want to see you again, look you in the eyes, but sadly i dont think that will happen. Maybe this is where it ends? good bye?
